The Blackangel Posted February 12 Share Posted February 12 On 2/8/2024 at 8:04 PM, killamch89 said: It's been a while since I've been on but I wanted to catch up with everyone. How's everyone been? I've been dealing with the sudden loss of my dog a few weeks back. I still miss her but life goes on. I'm so sorry you lost your baby. I lost mine last year. I've worn a vial around my neck ever since that has a bit of her blood, hair, and ashes in it. I refuse to take it off for any reason. I could die at 100 and this would still be around my neck. killamch89 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
killamch89 Posted February 13 Share Posted February 13 4 hours ago, The Blackangel said: I'm so sorry you lost your baby. I lost mine last year. I've worn a vial around my neck ever since that has a bit of her blood, hair, and ashes in it. I refuse to take it off for any reason. I could die at 100 and this would still be around my neck. I mean, she had a checkup only a few weeks before and the doctor said she's completely healthy but then she suddenly died from some disease called Brucella Canis. The vet said that it's something that can go untraceable for years before suddenly killing the dog. It certainly made sense because Lassie was the only female dog that I've had ever that had reproductive problems and some other signs I'd pointed out to the vet before and were treated. On another not, did your pitbull die? Where was I when this happened? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reality vs Adventure Posted February 13 Share Posted February 13 On 2/8/2024 at 8:04 PM, killamch89 said: It's been a while since I've been on but I wanted to catch up with everyone. How's everyone been? I've been dealing with the sudden loss of my dog a few weeks back. I still miss her but life goes on. Good to see you back man. You’re always cool here. Unfortunate circumstances for me too. I’ve been dealing with the same and it’s taking it’s toll on me. Write a journal to remember everything about your loved one. I mean everything. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
The Blackangel Posted February 13 Share Posted February 13 16 hours ago, killamch89 said: On another not, did your pitbull die? Where was I when this happened? Yes, it was my baby Lady. She had been diagnosed with cancer earlier in the year. But it wasn't the cancer that killed her. We had to put her down. We got up one morning and she simply couldn't move. She couldn't even show affection. When we got to the vet, although I knew it had to be done, I fought them like hell when they came to get her. after they took her in, I laid in the parking lot crying hysterically. @Rain Dew had to get help to lift me into the van so that we could go home because I couldn't move. All I could do was cry. All I'm doing right now is crying. I had to take all her pictured down. When I think about this I just want to join her. I want to die so I can be with her. I've been trying to kill myself ever since, but either @Rain Dew interferes, the rope/branch snaps, or I just simply can't find what I need. I made some poison that will kill a grown man within an hour, but @Rain Dew moved it somewhere, so it's out for now. If you're wondering why I make the poison, I tip my hollow points with it. What I make is deadlier than cyanide. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
killamch89 Posted February 15 Share Posted February 15 On 2/13/2024 at 1:01 PM, The Blackangel said: Yes, it was my baby Lady. She had been diagnosed with cancer earlier in the year. But it wasn't the cancer that killed her. We had to put her down. We got up one morning and she simply couldn't move. She couldn't even show affection. When we got to the vet, although I knew it had to be done, I fought them like hell when they came to get her. after they took her in, I laid in the parking lot crying hysterically. @Rain Dew had to get help to lift me into the van so that we could go home because I couldn't move. All I could do was cry. All I'm doing right now is crying. I had to take all her pictured down. When I think about this I just want to join her. I want to die so I can be with her. I've been trying to kill myself ever since, but either @Rain Dew interferes, the rope/branch snaps, or I just simply can't find what I need. I made some poison that will kill a grown man within an hour, but @Rain Dew moved it somewhere, so it's out for now. If you're wondering why I make the poison, I tip my hollow points with it. What I make is deadlier than cyanide. I understand how you feel. At least you knew your dog was going to go and could say a proper goodbye. I literally left her at home in the morning full of life and was even playing with me before I left. When I came home in the evening and my other dog came and greeted me, he was pulling me by the leg of my pants. When I got to her kennel and she was unresponsive. I knew she was dead but I immediately called my vet, put her in my car and brought her to the vet where she confirmed Lassie was dead but based on her test she couldn't figure out what was the cause. It was during subsequent we found out what really killed her. My other dog was so depressed and he kept putting his head on me trying to comfort me or rather, we were comforting each other. On 2/12/2024 at 10:31 PM, Reality vs Adventure said: Good to see you back man. You’re always cool here. Unfortunate circumstances for me too. I’ve been dealing with the same and it’s taking it’s toll on me. Write a journal to remember everything about your loved one. I mean everything. That's good advice and thanks man. Was it a pet or a family member that you lost? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
killamch89 Posted March 9 Share Posted March 9 Just wanted to catch up with everyone - How's the week been for everyone? I went out of town to visit a sick friend. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
killamch89 Posted April 3 Share Posted April 3 Hey guys - how's the week been going? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
killamch89 Posted April 16 Share Posted April 16 Hey Everyone - How was everyone's weekend? Heatman 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Heatman Posted April 28 Share Posted April 28 On 4/16/2024 at 2:39 AM, killamch89 said: Hey Everyone - How was everyone's weekend? And tomorrow is Monday.. I'm a serious hater of Mondays but unfortunately I can't do anything about it 😂... I wish Monday is added up to the weekend 😂. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
killamch89 Posted April 29 Share Posted April 29 15 hours ago, Heatman said: And tomorrow is Monday.. I'm a serious hater of Mondays but unfortunately I can't do anything about it 😂... I wish Monday is added up to the weekend 😂. Same here - I don't like Mondays either but I usually just get on with it. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
killamch89 Posted May 8 Share Posted May 8 Alright everyone, how's the week been so far? Is it going alright or has it been a disaster? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Knight Plug Posted May 9 Share Posted May 9 Well, I'm gonna take a step back from forums soon, mainly because my interest in them has just waxed and waned too much in recent years. I lost my mother last year as well, and things are hard for me now. When it comes to Resident Evil, I don't enjoy it much any more, or just ranting about survival horror in general. The genre just gets used to milk more mediocre games that you can tell are cash grabs. And I hate how they just keep doing remakes of old games to apparently play it safe, and even the new entries are just average, to be frank. The lack of news between events is a slog, too. People are never satisfied. Fanboys are a nuisance as they just seem to like or defend anything you can tell is rubbish, and some of Konami's now ex supporters just want to continue to take jabs at the likes of them and so on, rather than being optimistic for the future. They're living in the past instead of just accepting that time has moved on. There's also not much activity on forums either. Not compared to how they were years ago. Another issue is that trolls and bots come dumping crap everywhere, and this may be due to a lack of care involved in running the community. There's a lot of movies I could just watch instead of talking about games. If you feel you just don't like the direction of a franchise any longer, sometimes taking a break from involving yourself in debates over it is perhaps a good idea. Or I could just tune in at E3 type events, so I ain't gonna drive myself barmy over having to rabbit on about things that shouldn't matter. But yes. I know E3 ended, but in general, I just meant when it comes to showing an interest in gaming events where the most important updates occur. killamch89 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
killamch89 Posted May 11 Share Posted May 11 On 5/9/2024 at 3:06 AM, Knight Plug said: Well, I'm gonna take a step back from forums soon, mainly because my interest in them has just waxed and waned too much in recent years. I lost my mother last year as well, and things are hard for me now. When it comes to Resident Evil, I don't enjoy it much any more, or just ranting about survival horror in general. The genre just gets used to milk more mediocre games that you can tell are cash grabs. And I hate how they just keep doing remakes of old games to apparently play it safe, and even the new entries are just average, to be frank. The lack of news between events is a slog, too. People are never satisfied. Fanboys are a nuisance as they just seem to like or defend anything you can tell is rubbish, and some of Konami's now ex supporters just want to continue to take jabs at the likes of them and so on, rather than being optimistic for the future. They're living in the past instead of just accepting that time has moved on. There's also not much activity on forums either. Not compared to how they were years ago. Another issue is that trolls and bots come dumping crap everywhere, and this may be due to a lack of care involved in running the community. There's a lot of movies I could just watch instead of talking about games. If you feel you just don't like the direction of a franchise any longer, sometimes taking a break from involving yourself in debates over it is perhaps a good idea. Or I could just tune in at E3 type events, so I ain't gonna drive myself barmy over having to rabbit on about things that shouldn't matter. But yes. I know E3 ended, but in general, I just meant when it comes to showing an interest in gaming events where the most important updates occur. It sounds as if you haven't fully healed from your mother's passing so you should probably take a step back from everything until you're in the right state of mind. I did the same when my father died 3 years ago. Just isolate yourself and try to fully get other it. On another note, you'll always run into fanboys of certain games anywhere you go and they'll defend it to the death. It's just how they are and you have no control over that and I recommend just avoiding them altogether because you're not going to change most of their minds. And stressing yourself over things outside of your control is pointless because nothing you do will likely affect the outcome. Knight Plug 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Heatman Posted May 13 Share Posted May 13 On 4/29/2024 at 2:25 AM, killamch89 said: Same here - I don't like Mondays either but I usually just get on with it. Yeah exactly! We don't have a choice with it. No matter how much we hate it, as long there's work to be done, you will put up with it. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
killamch89 Posted May 15 Share Posted May 15 On 5/13/2024 at 10:47 AM, Heatman said: Yeah exactly! We don't have a choice with it. No matter how much we hate it, as long there's work to be done, you will put up with it. It's annoying especially when you just came back from a trip out of town on Sunday night. It's the hardest thing to get up on Monday. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
